for everyone (except the casual reader)
i think this might be a good time to try to explain a few things -
some of you know the actual condition of my car and the risks i'm taking and have taken before i departed on this trip. to this point, i've mainly made light of the situation for my own sanity; as well as those that care about me. i do understand the real mortal dangers involved with what i am doing; and i'm talking more than just about driving this car. these things do weigh heavy on my mind and heart.
"so why do it?" put yourself in my shoes and ask yourself the same question. (to expand...) "why quit my job and abandon, at the very least, a comfortable life? why leave town? why say goodbye to close friends and family? why set out on the road with a not-so-safe car that may get nowhere, or worse; with little security; little money; and no plan or destination?" and your answer?
there is an infinite number of reasons why i've chosen to do this; but it all boils down to a simple truth - i know in my heart that i have to; not only for my future; but for the futures of all those who are, and will be, in my life.
(furthermore...) take all those things you've always dreamed of; yet, never imagined you'd do; no matter how big or small. now, think about all the reasons and excuses why those dreams have not come true - the work, the risks, the consequences, logic, perception... "intelligence alone... strives to stifle the underlying demands of the human heart." - albert camus, the myth of sisyphus and other essays
there will always be a reason. and there will always be someone to tell you you're wrong; what you're doing is wrong. but, it is all trivial in the end.
do you want to look back and say your life was filled with excuses? or your dreams? your answer?
i am taking risks in order to achieve those things i've dreamed of; yet, never imagined i'd do; no matter how big or small; and in spite of all the excuses. "for what is anything worth... if you don't put yourself at stake in whatever you choose to do." - filippa naslund.
(maybe, i should've just said that at the start?)
some of you know the actual condition of my car and the risks i'm taking and have taken before i departed on this trip. to this point, i've mainly made light of the situation for my own sanity; as well as those that care about me. i do understand the real mortal dangers involved with what i am doing; and i'm talking more than just about driving this car. these things do weigh heavy on my mind and heart.
"so why do it?" put yourself in my shoes and ask yourself the same question. (to expand...) "why quit my job and abandon, at the very least, a comfortable life? why leave town? why say goodbye to close friends and family? why set out on the road with a not-so-safe car that may get nowhere, or worse; with little security; little money; and no plan or destination?" and your answer?
there is an infinite number of reasons why i've chosen to do this; but it all boils down to a simple truth - i know in my heart that i have to; not only for my future; but for the futures of all those who are, and will be, in my life.
(furthermore...) take all those things you've always dreamed of; yet, never imagined you'd do; no matter how big or small. now, think about all the reasons and excuses why those dreams have not come true - the work, the risks, the consequences, logic, perception... "intelligence alone... strives to stifle the underlying demands of the human heart." - albert camus, the myth of sisyphus and other essays
there will always be a reason. and there will always be someone to tell you you're wrong; what you're doing is wrong. but, it is all trivial in the end.
do you want to look back and say your life was filled with excuses? or your dreams? your answer?
i am taking risks in order to achieve those things i've dreamed of; yet, never imagined i'd do; no matter how big or small; and in spite of all the excuses. "for what is anything worth... if you don't put yourself at stake in whatever you choose to do." - filippa naslund.
(maybe, i should've just said that at the start?)
2 Comments:
Hello Vajayjay. The Deathcab is in my prayers, although that sounds like a strange thing to pray for. I'll give you a buzz in the next couple of days to find out where you is. Take it easy brother.
"The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing, and becomes nothing. He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn and feel and change and grow and love and live."
Leo F. Buscaglia
you inspire me, jamiec.
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