don't fall in love unless you want to get hurt

back to wooglin's again before splitting town. say my goodbyes. brook and johnny are the only ones working today though. no andres to make me laugh my ass off one last time. that's okay though. start talking with brook and johnny. mention my contacts freezing this morning and how i think i should head south. johnny gives me some advice on which areas to drive carefully thru in case of bad weather - raton's pass on the way to new mexico - very windy and dangerous. says goodbye one last time as he's getting off his shift and going home.

so, brook and i are left alone. start talking about her parents, her upbringing, past relationships, and why she moved to colorado springs of all places?? though fayette-nam is no better. we talk life and love mostly.

from what she tells me, i get the sense she's afraid of getting too close to people. afraid of relationships. of love. whatever it may be. doesn't want to get hurt.

THE HARTMANS - THE FIRST THING I WAS TAUGHT WHEN I WAS YOUNG (DON'T FALL IN LOVE UNLESS YOU WANT TO GET HURT)

but how can you truly love, and be loved, if you don't allow yourself to be hurt? to be open and vulnerable? can you really share yourself with anyone?

for that very reason our conversation only went so far. she didn't want to reveal too much though i sensed there was a lot more to be said. we just scratched the surface of something much larger.